2008 is only an hour and a half old and I'm already in a funk. Actually, I've been in a funk for some time. Started sometime in October 2007, I think. Can one really put a finger on these things? Anyway, I had a difficult batch of students then and I was feeling discouraged. And I began to dread going to work. Still feel pretty moodless about work.
And then there was the accident. Yeah, I was in an accident on 27 November. Some stupid biker ran a red light and smashed into my car. Didn't pay a dime for the damages. That really got me upset. Still upset. Yeah, I should get over it but I'm not even trying. That's bad, I know.
I've not been in good health either. Toothaches, mysterious earaches, bloating, weird joint pains, hairloss, etc. Maybe my sleep debt has reached it's limit and my body can't take much more.
It feels like I'm just breathing, going through the motions but powerless to affect the things around me but everything and everyone around me have the power to affect me. I feel helpless. And tired. So very tired. Physically, emotionally spent.
What a way to start the new year.
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1 comment:
Oh, I get what you mean. Not exactly the same, but from a different point of view, since we both have different standings in life. But, yea, sometimes I get so tired that it feels pointless to try anymore. Just living for the sake of it. But hold on ok. Hold on. Somehow, God will open a door somewhere. And usually, He just opens our hearts. Coz that's wehere He starts. And He opens our eyes to see that life still has a meaning. On a 'lighter' note, maybe it's like a mid-life crisis thingy (I'm not in a mid-life crisis though. I'm just in a crisis of sorts coz I put myself there. Haha). Hehe. But don't go all bonkers on it. It'll pass. It takes forever, but it'll pass and we'll all pull through. *hugs*
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