Whoosh!

How time flies! Whoosh! I'm now 30 going on 31.Whoosh! I've been married 7 years! Whoosh! I have 2 kids! Whoosh! My firstborn is already 2 years old. Sigh.

Wish I could...
relive and savor again the happy times
undo the wrong I've done
skip the bad times

I miss the carefree days. Get home from work, unwind, dinner and maybe catch a movie or just hang out with friends at mamak stalls. These days I can hardly leave the house without the 2 kids in tow. Just to have my hair cut required careful planning and the help of my mum to look after Sean. Me time? WHAT'S THAT?!

But I do enjoy being with my sons, watching them grow. Of course caring for a 2 year old and a 4 month old can be really tiring and stressful, even with my mum's help. I've recently got shingles - a mild case, thank God! - and I think it's due in part (a large part) to stress and poor health (lack of sleep).

I realise though how not many mums get the opportunity to spend time with their kids like I do and I am thankful.

We do still keep in touch with friends via the net and we do hang out once in a while (yes, even at mamak stalls, with the kids in tow!) and watch a movie now and then at home so it's not all that bad.

I wonder though if I'll ever again pick up a mic and sing (in church, on stage, etc). It's been more than 2 years since I did that and I'm now rather, no, very, rusty....pitching all over the place, breathing kaput, etc. But it's great hearing Sean sing and watching him dance.

Whoosh!